"Tears screamed about how shattered I was, words shouted about how broken I was, but my mind was blank and confused..."

~ BJB

This was the moment that I've been waiting for the past fifteen years. As I held the gun between the middle of his eyes, he didn't flinch or flicker. It was like he expected this moment.

Years ago, I thought this day would give me solace but... now I don't know, if it would kill my nightmares and monsters. The one who gave me the reason to smile again was the one who pushed me to darkness, years back. Am I going back to the deepest darkness that I once experienced? Will I be able to move on? The one who killed my monsters was  he himself my biggest monster???

I could see myself, the broken self, through his eyes, those eyes were asking for forgiveness which I think I won't be able to grant. But can I really kill him? I don't know... The man I trusted after a long time, turned out to be my biggest enemy... my monster...

Holding my breathe for a moment, deeply exhaling and inhaling, I stood face to him. He could sense my inner conflicts.

He looked so composed even when I pointed my gun to his head, "Shoot me Red, complete what you have started. Break my heart. Break it a thousand times if you like. It was only ever yours to break anyway. I'll love you until my last breath. Every beat of my heart is yours. I don't want to die without you knowing that. Nothing between us was a lie. Don't miss me Red. Continue with your life, learn to smile more. Goodbye for this lifetime, Jasmine Russelo."

His words startled me and I pressed the trigger... click

And the sound of the fired bullet echoed the room. And after a split second when I opened my eyes, all I saw was blood, blood and blood scattered around me.

Now I've got blood of my beloved on my hands, even though taking lives was not something new to me. But his life was different...

Again I was pushed back to the eternal darkness.